The boy I kissed

The boy I kissed, his name is Chris. Who could have known that that kiss would be the start of a long relationship. What can I tell you about Chris? I had noticed him since the first day of school. I walked into my english class and there he was, dressed in his camo pants, varsity singers shirt and a red bandana. He looked so cool. We kind of looked each other up and down. ( I know now that he noticed me that first day too.) he was so cute and cool and when I left school, I told my new friends about him. They were all like, stay away , he has a girlfriend. He's bad news. Blah, blah, blah. Well, I did stay away for about a year. He had a girlfriend and his ex girlfriend just happened to be the only person that I knew when I moved to Miami.
So, I just kissed him. Out of the blue. I guess I was feeling really low that night and I figured what the hell.He cornered me the next day at school and asked me out. That was the beginning. We had some definite ups and downs over the course of our relationship. I will try and remember some and post them.I will say this. I never loved anyone else with the passion and intensity that I loved Chris.We were really good together and we were really bad together.

Why I was a bitch

I have all these things that I want to say but I'm not sure anyone is interested. So, continuing from my last post. I went out with this boy in high school in Texas. He was the quarterback on his football team. I was a freshman. Need I say more?? I went from being a nobody to total coolness just like that. Then, he graduated from high school and that summer my family moved to Florida. He came with us to help us move. I was 15 with raging hormones and a boyfriend who would be gone in a week. We spent hours making out, groping each other. He so wanted to be my first. So many times at the last minute I said no no, we can't . He begged and I still said no. Well, he left without us ever having sex and we stayed together long distance for a couple of months. He joined the Marines and I sent him a dear John letter a month after I started high school down here. Too many cute guys and he was just too far away. I didn't realize how devastating a letter like that was to him being so far from his family and friends. I just had the hots for a new guy and that's all I was thinking about. Turns out, I had terrible judgement on that guy . I chased after him for a couple of months till he finally invited me over to his house where he basically coerced me into having sex with him and we never spoke again. I left his house that night and went to a pep rally at school. This guy in my english class pulled up to me in his car after the pep rally to say something and I just leaned in the window and kissed him. He was so shocked. He was the cool guy on campus and I just so desperately needed to feel wanted that night. Probably another mistake. He's another story. But anyhow, I should have had sex with my first boyfriend who really loved me and made me feel good instead of holding out and getting date raped by some scumbag who didn't care about me at all.Of course, he did eventually get his ass kicked .

My first boyfriend

lately , I've been feeling like I wanted to reconnect with all my high school friends. I'm not really sure why but I definitely have this urge to go out and find them. But this boyfriend actually found me.
So, I have 2 kids who are homeschooled. I go to a park group that meets once a week for field trips. I also have horses so I offered up pony rides for one of the field trips. On the day of the field trip I ask everyone who showed up to sign a waiver of liability. This lady who was pretty new to our group signs her name and her last name is really different. In fact, I've only ever heard it once and it belonged to my boyfriend when I was 15. I ask her if she has relatives in Texas. Mind you, I haven't even lived there for 20 years. She says yes, that her husbands family lives there. I continue to stick my foot down my throat as I ask her if she knows a guy named Tim. She says yes and asks why. I'm like oh I dated him in high school. He was the quarterback of his football team. So cute. She 's like , yes well these are his children and I'm his ex-wife. I was so shocked I didn't even know what to say. What do you say when your ex boyfriends exwife shows up in your backyard after no contact for 20 years???? She's like so I've heard all about you. Like I'm the reason for their breakup. I spent the whole field trip freaking out inside my head and totally wishing for a joint or a valium or something. well, I scared her away from our group because she never came back. Funny thing though, I looked up my ex. He only lived 5 miles away from me for like 10 years. Now he lives a few hours away. I haven't seen him but we email and text and I'd like to see him one day and catch up and apologize in person for being such a bitch all those years ago.

My week from Hell

This has been the week from hell. My father in law passed away on sunday. He was very sick with congestive heart failure. He has been suffering for over a year but that doesn't make it any easier.My son is taking it really hard. It is so sad. Well, the funeral was out of town so we couldn't all go due to the cost so only my husband went. Well, the day before he left, I was driving my son to the dentist and my jeep just suddenly stopped shifting. I had to have it towed home. WEll, I didn't tell my husband because he was so stressed out about his father and I knew I could use his car while he was gone. However, he will be home tomorrow and I will definitely have to bring it up.On top of that, I had a yard sale to get ready for, which it rained during the whole sale. And... I have a bill collector calling me . And I spent some money that I wasn't supposed to and haven't been able to replace it. the list goes on and on. Everything I read about my jeep suggests that I may need a new transmission. He won't go for that so it looks like I won't be going anywhere for a while.Maybe I'll write alot more. OH and taxes are due in 2 days and I have to do my mom's and my sister's and I still haven't started. I can't focus. I'd like to sleep through the next week and just say the hell with it. I wish I could sell my property in Gainesvile. That would solve alot of problems.

Bees...

So, I walk back to my barn a couple of days ago and I hear this droning sound. I walk inside the barn and almost die. There were bees everywhere. Everywhere!!! Like, at least 10,000 bees. They were trying to go inside a hole in the concrete block on the outside of one of the stalls. I look inside the stall and my horse is all the way against the far wall, tryig to be invisible. I open her door and get her out as quickly as possible. THe bees were crazy. I wasn't really sure what to do or why they were there. I read on the internet that you can get bees swarming like that because for some reason they have left their hive. I called a beekeeper, thinking that the right thing to do is to remove them. ha!! The beekeper wanted $600 bucks. So, I took a can of wasp spray and me and my mom went back their and just started spraying. I figured if there was two of us, one of us should be able to call 911. Well, the next morning the bees moved out. There are still a few lonely bees buzzing around. I don't know where they went but as long as they aren't here, it's all good.
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